我的病人兼朋友写的思想汇报，结论很大胆，但逻辑真的非常严密。

A Case Report for the Future

One major feature that raises human beings above the kingdom of animals is that human beings have rationality. We base our emotions on the apprehension of the environment. The senses send signals to the brain; it processes them and makes judgments. Our body reacts accordingly and creates emotions. For example, your eyes see a shape, your brain identifies it as an innocent child, and then you feel safe with him. What is the possibility that you are convinced about the harmlessness of this child yet you are panic and try to run away from him? In this situation your rationality functions well but it loses control of your behavior. It’s impossible unless you are suffering from the disease in which the emotions are cut off from your rationality. It’s off-key by referring to irrationality since even in mania one’s emotional reactions are still based on his apprehension of the environment; it’s just that the apprehension upon which his judgment is based is wrong. However, such a disease as far as I know have never been documented, which makes it extremely impossible that I am suffering from one. On the other hand, if I did have such an incredibly impossible disease, I only have symptoms in a certain period of time, at certain geographical locations, and only a specific aspect of my mentality is involved with the rest of it functioning normally? Not a single chance. The only appalling but on second thought also appealing explanation is that some people are tampering with my brain. Though it is not unapproachable from a professional point of view it only exists in scientific fictions, but don’t stories written by serious knowledgeable authors in the past keep becoming true in this brave new world?
Our emotional reaction is based on personal experience and common sense. What I am recently experiencing frequently is that I have emotional upsurges which I cannot relate to any direct or indirect environmental factors, past or present. Another phenomenon is that my emotional reaction is off-key recently. Certain subjects which I used to feel uncomfortable about and I presently have reasons to feel less uncomfortable about (since the current environment was regarded more benevolent than the previous one in that I walked in full of expectations) made me panic like hell (Typically related to a certain person). Interesting enough, during the past a few days, when I identify the environment as more and more unfriendly again, these attacks tapered off. It could be that I have re-gained the ability of handling them, which I developed in the previous environment. But how did I lose the ability when I first entered the current environment? It happened so suddenly and no major factors can be identified during the transition.
Interestingly when I doubted the genuineness of those emotional upsurges, often they calmed down immediately, so much like I was in a “simulation” and somebody called it off, especially in the beginning of this USA journey, or a dose of sedation was introduced. This brings about an interesting hypothesis: some people were running short of time and they didn’t know the appropriate “dosage of the serum”. However, in order to manipulate they have to be able to understand first, question is how did they read my mind immediately after I set my foot on this land in July? Everybody has to be individualized to achieve such accuracy, which leads to a deduction that the USG has used this un-registered weaponry on me no later than the second time (this time being the fourth). This deduction is based on the premise that no one provides details to the adversaries on how he has failed. I am not interested in the bargains between governments. Briefly I only want to say that before one makes the judgment and actions accordingly, he has to perform estimation, which somehow leads to a wild guess that the major transaction took into place around 2011/2012. However, it’s nothing but a wild goose chase. Not of my interest.
Another interesting phenomenon is that from a certain point on all of a sudden I have intrusive thoughts appearing in my mind, including narrations, arguments, concepts, and so on. They are out of my control; some of the concepts are novel to me (for example: antinomy). I don’t have hallucinations. These thoughts seem to be alien and conflicting with my native thoughts so that I constantly feel my train of thought is interrupted. There are other symptoms. One of the hypotheses is that once again I am suffering from a mental disease which makes me erase memories and wishfully tailor my mentality suiting an imaginary plot. Targeting on one topic, the symptoms are strictly confined but very systematic. The other hypothesis is simple: some people are brain manipulating me, and they are able to read my mind in order for manipulation. It’s similar to AIDS invading in one’s body, identifying and fighting with the defensive system and spreading themselves by patterning. Whether these thoughts are sabotaging mutations or implanted is an antinomy now. There is a prediction that I can make: comparing the advancements of symptomatology with that of neuroscience, there is a time in the future that the second scenario will not just be hypothesis but come true. So once again, why am I supposed to foresee it with certain clairvoyance at this point in time? I am not a neuroscientist.
I now try to provide further thoughts about the streamline of this USA journey. Fact one: the USG was trying to pull out the job on a short notice. Fact two: If one is able to manipulate and he is willing to use manipulation, he doesn’t announce that he is manipulating. Fact three: the USG had been debunked about this un-registered weaponry. Used or not, it had been there. Yet why did they still have to reveal it? Reason one based on fact one and two: they didn’t know how to sneak in. Reason two based on fact three: they pretended to be candor. A side evidence for reason two is that in the beginning they were actually straight forward, but gradually they slipped into innuendo again which seemed to be more and more ambivalent. Ironically enough, it were them who in the very beginning admonished me not to take wild goose chase for the meanings of innuendos, but in the end their innuendos were no less ambiguous than the other. They avoided being caught dirty handed in the beginning and took their gloves off at last. An interesting phenomenon is that after I made the final decision of siding with my G instead of the USG, together with the development of this report, the symptoms gradually weaned off until today when I can hardly experience them except a few qualms during the day.